Love

Everything we said we'd do to make this happen has fallen by the wayside.
I've let myself deteriorate into this stagnant person
that settles for less than his purpose.
And I've given you less than yours.
These keys that unlock the door to normality, they fit the locks so very, very perfectly,
and I let the comfort become commonplace to point that risk
was so null and void it didn't exist.
Every day I have someone screaming in my ear that life is not about feeling,
but it's hard to feel like listening when the voice is so pervasive that it becomes intrusive,
and yet still it echoes
through a verse,
through conversation,
from the pulpit,
from these prophetic mouths.
As it turns out, the little things aren't so little,
and the small things end up being bigger than you imagine
as you stop taking notice and let them slip away.

Those little love notes were the things that made us shine,
but now you know I love you,
so I've stopped putting forth the time
to tell you anyway.

Now that the butterflies are gone, it's hard to catch one in this jar,
and over the months I've compartmentalized the sections of my soul,
and built a solid rock wall around my heart.
There's a butterfly in each drawer, and each one might even still be alive,
but they haven't been able to play,
and I haven't let them fly…
So all of me is still living for you,
but somehow some of the pieces got separated ,
and a couple of them started holding record of wrongs,
and a couple of them got irritable,
and a couple of them started to feel abandoned,
and a lot of them forgot what it was like
before we became normal people and lost that infatuation.

Those little acts of kindness are the things that keep us alive,
but now I know you love me,
so I've stopped putting for the effort,
and I can afford to be rude.

None of these butterflies should have been allowed to fly away.
I should have kept a closer watch.
I should have let the sun in,
and we shouldn't have settled for normality
when then shadows started to turn
those beautiful bright wings a dull gray.
I swear I will act my way into feeling so that we can feel again
and so that we can love again
and so that we can fall in love again.

Those little things that we let slip away will be what pull us back together,
and we know that we are in love,
and I cannot promise you perfection, but I can apologize for where I have failed,
and I can become vulnerable again,
and I can love you the way that you are meant to be loved

Sanctuary/Motorcycles

Jesus stands with his mouth to the Father's ear, whispering on my behalf. 

How amazing is it that Jesus is for me? For us?

I think that the most exciting thing, for me, as of now, at least, about building up some sort of consistency in plugging into the word of God, and taking advantage of the relationship that Jesus offers me, is that I no longer feel obliged to care for and love others, but I desire it. I get stoked about being able to start the day and just be with people and love them and cherish those blessings. I am becoming ever more thankful for the people I have around me, for those that I'm close to and for those that I've yet to meet. And I know that my relationship with God and others is not about feeling and butterflies, but it's just so exciting when it does feel that way. And it does. And it's noticeable to me. And it's AWESOME. 

More of the dates have been coming through on the July tour that I'm doing with In the Midst of Lions (www.myspace.com/inthemidstoflions) and All Or Nothing (www.myspace.com/aonmetal). There's a chance that I'll be doing some dates with a band called Syrens (www.myspace.com/syrenstx) in August, as well. I'm still just trying to figure it all out. Prayer request, though - there's a chance that I'm going to need to get to Denver in order to meet the band because they won't be able to come this far south to pick me up anymore. That wouldn't be a problem except that Veil Arms has a huge show the night before, and that's really my last chance to make any money before the run, and that makes getting to Denver really complicated. So, if you would, please pray with me that the planning with run - at least - relatively smoothly. 

I'm also in the process of selling my car. (Honda Accord - if anyone wants something cheap to drive with mewithoutYou lyrics all over it. I'm trying to get $400 out of it, but will probably settle for less.) A friend of mine has an old 80s Suzuki GS 750 cc for sale that he said is in good condition that he's selling for around the same price as I'm trying to get for my car, and said he'd help me get it top-notch so I don't die. So that's kind of what I'm thinking at the moment. Who knows. I'm the most indecisive person in the world. I can't even decide what kind of candy I want at the gas station. 

Can't really think of anything else to write. Thanks for loving me. If any of you have any prayer requests for me, I would love to keep them in mind. Just a thought. Message me if you don't want them all over the internet for everyone to see. I would be honored to pray for you. God knows I need it, too. 

Love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love, 

Levi