Sunday, September 7, 2008


Jack Bauers (sp?) is saving the world. He's just been tortured in China for two years, but he's back, a killing machine.

There isn't a whole lot I'd like to say right now. I just thought I'd say hello, you know. To the massive amounts of people who actually read this blog. :-)


Jesus loves you. 

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Pick of the Litter

So, I am very excited to say that my Levi the Poet project will be a Pick of the Litter in HM's upcoming issue for Nov/Dec #134. I gave my demo to Doug thinking that he might give me a few pointers or something like that, and next thing I know it was up on the "potential pick" shelf and the other other intern, Laurel, loved it and gave it this veto - vote thing that says it's going in the mag no matter what - respectively. 

Um, man. HM is my favorite magazine and I just feel like an excited little kid who ate way too much sugar for breakfast and caffeine for lunch. Really I just feel totally blessed by the Lord, and humbled, to some degree, in doubting his care for me, or my lack of faith in him. 

I mean, I'm not saying I came out here to intern at HM so I could have the potential to be in it... I came here because I love to write and I love music and I feel like God's given me a passion for both. And I love HM. It's not like if you work here you get favors. They could've really just thought my project sucked beyond all hope for anything...

Anyway, when I get stoked I think I start to put my foot in my mouth, but all I'm trying to say is that I am stoked, and that God loves to bless his children. 

Working here has been really fun. Doug has a beautiful heart for what he does and he works harder than I may ever have. Basically it's like, him and his wife, and a couple people here and there that run the whole magazine - which was a big surprise for me, having been a fan it for so long and having these pictures in your head of like, a lot of people working on each one. It's crazy. It's a blessing, and I hope more than anything that I am and can continue to be a blessing to them. I'm so privileged to have the opportunity to be out here - and I do learn a lot and it's all very in depth and in those ways i'm really profiting from it - but man, my mindset right now is just that I want to do whatever I can to help, to be a part of something that I love and get to bless others in the process. I guess. 

So yeah. I'm excited about the way things are going right now. I miss everyone at home terribly - especially Brandi. But the Lord's in control, and he has used this time to help build up my faith so much (not only through the good things, I've faced a lot of bad here, too, with personal or relational struggles). If you would've told me that God was going to use the trials of a couple of months ago to his glory in my heart the way he has, I wouldn't have believed you. 

So, to God be the glory. Because I could die in the middle of this sentence. 

I'm in the process of learning harmonica. I just learned "Merrily We Roll Along", "Lullaby", and "Jingle Bells". It's awesome. I want to be one of those cowboys in the movies that finds a random stump by a cactus and builds a fire and cooks the rabbit he killed and plays harmonica while drinking whiskey from a flask. 

Monday, September 1, 2008

A Night In Austin (Give or Take)

Monday, September 1, 2008
Day Twenty-Nine (Labor – Day)

I walked around Wal-Mart with a big HULK glove on that made cool HULK sound effects and punched myself in the head over and over again and laughed out loud. 

We went to see Hellboy II (no, it wasn't good at all, but there were a couple funny parts and it was a dollar, so it's okay). I got a large popcorn bag out of the trashcan and refilled it for fifty cents (kind of like the rapper) and ate more popcorn than any one person should eat and felt like throwing up afterwards. 

The movie got out around midnight, and then I drove into Austin to try to find Woody. Being Labor Day Weekend, which I forgot about, it was ridiculously crowded and there was no Woody in sight. 

However, I met a guy named Don. Don Pendleton. He's a 48-year-old drifter from Okalahoma City, and we got to talking and I helped him panhandle for a little while and we laughed at funny drunk people and things of the sort. Anyway… he was trying to get a bus ticket north and I live north so I told him I'd give him a ride up to Waco (which, I didn't honestly realize how far Waco really is – turns out it's like two hours north from downtown Austin). Man, his eyes lit up like no other – he got so excited! And that made me excited, you know? Being able to help someone that needed help. So anyway, he said he didn't want to leave till the morning, so he took off to crash, and I walked around some more and sat on this stoop and started doing spoken word poetry. 

Funny things happen when you do spoken word poetry around a bunch of drunk people. I think about five or six of the first people to walk by just started cussing me out. A couple people walked by and smiled. More people walked by and spit in my general direction (good thing their aim was off). 

One dude came up to me, grabbed my hand and started walking with me, and then stopped a few steps later to say, "Oh, I'm sorry, I thought you were a girl."
And one guy, God bless his heart, gave me a dollar.

It was awesome. I laughed so much at everybody getting all mad at me and stuff. It was so, so much fun. So then I got tired because it was like three o-clock in the morning and all the cops started shutting down the streets, so I walked back to my car and parked next to a church on 10th and Red River and took some pictures of the city night and went to sleep. 

I had finally fallen asleep when a cop shined his big dumb spotlight into my car window and I'm thinking, "Great, he's going to tell me to move…"

Instead though, I just popped my head up and looked at him and he looked and me and said into his walkie-talkie thing, "Somebody's sleeping in there…" and then he got in his car and left. So that made me happy and it was kind of funny that he just looked at me and left and then I fell back sleep until about nine. (FYI – it's really hot inside of cars inside of Austin). 

Next cool thing. 

Went to Starbucks to get coffee and this chick asked if I would watch her bag. So I watch the bag, she comes out with Starbucks, and starts telling me about all these things you can do to scams your way into getting free drinks and I just think it's funny because I work there and already know all those things but whatever. 

So she's cool. Her name is Beet. She's 20 and she's from New York and she's not really a drifter but she travels around hitchhiking and tells me how to hop trains and things of that sort. She also drew out picture directions on how to bind my own books, which is really cool and I plan on making a journal this week. Pretty much she's awesome. 

Anyway, she ways she's going to try to make her way up 35 and I say, "I'm giving some other dude a ride up 35 anyway, you're welcome to come." So she's stoked and we hang out and talk about music and travel and things and make our way to some gas station where we're meeting Don and it was really cool. Got to share my testimony with her and tell her about my life and stuff, and more than anything I feel like I made two cool friends and I like making friends, so it's good. 

We stop by a gas station and I think I made the counter-lady's whole week because I gave her my pound of coffee mark-out from Starbucks and for a minute there I really, really, really think she's going to cry tears of joy.

Don comes, we split. We listen to Manchester Orchestra and mewithoutYou and we talk about life for a long time. 

So now I'm sure they're parted ways and are on the road again with some other person, and I'm back in my trailer thinking about it all, and if I've learned anything, because no one says you have to have learned something – it could just be building relationships. I don't know if there's a lesson in every single circumstance we come across – but I know that I loved last night and today, and I think that Jesus used me to help some people out, - cause I didn't know that was going to happen, man, I just went downtown to sleep - and I know that they were happy for it so that makes me happy for it. I got both of their phone numbers so that we can stay in touch. Beet says she's gonna send me music suggestions, and Don says he's going to finish clearing things up with the truck company he worked for and get back out on the road again sometime in the next month. I wish them both the best. 

Anyway, that's the last eighteen hours or so.